Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Maybe this will help?!?

So, my name is Shauna VanHorn. I don't know if anyone will read this or not, so I just decided that I better introduce myself just in case somebody does. I am a 21 year old, and I am also depressed. I'm stressed, depressed, pissed off, and I don't know how to deal with it anymore. So hence the blog. I am trying everything that I can think of to help relieve the stress, and nothing has worked so far. I'm even on anti-depressants. I just got married in June, and it seems to be that my marriage is falling apart as well. We may as well have not even gotten married, because we seemed to get along a hell of a lot better when we weren't. He is 23, and he acts like a fricken 16 year old. After we got married, it seemed as though our relationship fell through the hole. He never talks to me, he spends more time with everyone else than he does me, and he does NOTHING unless told. I shouldnt have to treat him like a little kid. I don't even have a child, but I feel like I am raising one. When I try to talk to him, he yells at me. He can't even hold a conversation with me. He says that he doesn't know what to talk to me about. So I am sick of that piece of my life. THEN, there's my screwed up family. I don't even want to talk about that because it is a waste of my time, and it would also be a waste of yours, if you are reading this. Just know that they are the most dysfunctional, stupid, no brained individuals that you could ever dream of meeting. So I just figured that I would start out by saying this much and then continue from there. Hopefully this will be read and I will receive some kind of response to this from someone, ANYONE. I just need someone to talk to.